So this is my first blog EVER. I created my profile earlier this week but I have been struggling with what to write about. I am in no way the most eloquent writer. I came to terms with my inability to write in the first grade when I couldn't write a 10 page book. All I had to do was put like 7 words on a page but couldn't do it. What 7 year old can't think of one thing to write about? Yeah, that would be me. So I have struggled with writing ever since. I'm not expecting anyone follow my blogs, let alone finish this one. I was encouraged to start this blog by one of my best friends. I was really hesitant at first but thought, "what the heck?" I don't know if you'd call it a dream, but I have always wanted to write a journal or blog. Journals are a little weird because it's like talking to yourself which I think is a little odd. So I decided to give it a shot. But I digress.
I guess I'll start with a super cool thing that happened. Yesterday, I was driving to school (I go to ASU) and I glance over to the left to a car where an older couple were both staring at me. Of course, coming from Northwest Indiana, I was thinking how completely rude these people are being. I realized seconds later that the husband was doing the "pitchfork" symbol with his fingers. [For anyone who doesn't know, ASU is the sun devils and our mascot is a devil with a pitchfork.] The couple must have saw the ASU sticker on the back of my car so I sped up a little and when I was right next to the couple's car, I threw up "pitchfork" as well. It may sound really dumb but I had never experienced school spirit like that. I wasn't into anything at my high school. My older sister when to a high school where there was a tremendous amount of school spirit. I loved going to her basketball games because I never felt that kind of spirit at my high school. The same goes for my first two years of college. I always wanted to go away to Purdue for school but as graduation got closer and closer, my dad would always say that I am only allowed to go to a community college or somewhere close. I attended Purdue branch schools for my first two years. Basically, it's the same diploma but a lot cheaper and has a community college atmosphere. I came to terms with not being able to go away for college but I still felt stuck. I don't know how to explain it but I felt like I was stuck in a place where I wouldn't go anywhere. I wasn't completely happy there. My mom had moved out to Arizona a couple months before high school graduation. The first time I visited her in 2009, we checked out the ASU campus for the heck of it. I was amazed by the beauty of the campus and the atmosphere. But I never thought about attending the school. I guess you could say I had an epiphany.. it was last year around November/Decemberish that I began thinking about moving to Arizona and attending ASU. I was really torn because I couldn't bear leaving my whole family, granted I would be with my mom but it was still a really difficult decision. I couldn't even tell my dad because I couldn't bear to see him upset over it. What did I have to lose? Honestly, if it doesn't work out, it was an experience at the least. Now I'm a month into school and I can honestly say that it was the best decision I have ever made. Not to say it hasn't been difficult being away from family, because it has. I have this school spirit and pride like never before. I was never really proud to say that I was going to a Purdue branch school. But now, I say that I am attending ASU and have this grin on my face. When I attended the first football game, my spirit was 1000x maximized. And let me stop here by saying that anyone who knows me, knows that I am not a football fan AT ALL. It is a very slow paced game and I get too antsy or bored when I'm watching it. But being in the student section cheering with everyone, it was an unreal experience. This may seem like an everyday thing to some people but I'm not used to this at all. I'm a city girl, I'm not used to all this open area. I know I lived in Northwest Indiana all my life where there is tons of farm land, but not this vast. I'm not used to the quiet or the nice people. Or the heat! The heat is a killer, I'm not sure I will ever really get used to this. I mean, how can you? When it's 118 degrees outside, what do you do? You really don't want to take a chance going outside because it is just too hot. And it's a dry heat, which I hear is supposed to be worse than humidity? Maybe I have that backwards. I don't notice a difference, I just know it's HOT. And it's even worse when I have to ride my bike around campus on these 100+ degree days. The winters here are gorgeous but I am definitely doing to miss snow, and Christmas will be very weird without it. I can't imagine Christmas without snow, that just isn't right to me. I complained about it all the time but that was when I had to be somewhere. Who doesn't love snow when they have no agenda? It's so beautiful and fun! I have wandered off subject. I want to end with saying that I just can't believe that I am HERE attending Arizona State University. I feel like the luckiest girl on Earth.
[Pitchfork hand gesture]
Don't bulls**t me, I know this sucked.
